I'm falling in helping you get out

well the last few days have been a little surreal, i haven't really felt like myself much and i feel like i've let the real me down. It's like being in an out of body experience, looking in and just watching myself make a fool of myself. Whilst screaming 'NOOOOOOO' inisde my head i find myself conitinually following the same routine, and embarking on the yellow brick road to total humiliation. Why I can't stop it I haven't a clue but it's like driving a car towards a brick wall and noticing theres no brake. Not only this but theres one comment that is hanging over me, I don't know why you said it but if brutally honest at one time I did, but never since, well done on making things awkward. Surreal is what I called it and surreal is what it is, I cant wait to get back to normality - whatever that is.